I never knew my capacity to love until I met you. I never realised how completely consumed I could become by another person. As soon as you were born my heart missed a beat and you became an intrinsic part of me. You are in my every breath and in my every heartbeat. How joyful my life is with you in it, and for that I thank you.
I didn’t always find motherhood easy. When you were born, my life dramatically changed and it took some time to mentally adjust. I struggled with the loss of freedom, spontaneity and sleep. I worried about your every move and became anxious. But with time my confidence grew and I learned to trust my own instincts. I stopped trying to achieve perfection and embraced all the highs and lows of new motherhood, safe in the knowledge that you’d love me unconditionally, that the hard times wouldn’t last forever and that I’d always do my best to make you feel loved and safe.
I soon realised there was no “one way” to parent, and that my way was valid and good. I felt empowered and fulfilled. Having you in my life has tested me in so many different ways and forced me to become a better, kinder, more patient and giving person. I am not infallible and do make mistakes. For that I am sorry and I hope you will forgive me. But know one thing, my love for you is all encompassing and resolute. My passion for you is all consuming. My prayers for you are enduring.
There is no greater love than a mother’s love and no more exquisite an experience than holding your first born in your arms. You are no longer my only child but you will always be my first. You are the first that stole my heart, the first that made me cry and the first that made me beam with pride and joy. Happy birthday my darling girl.